Letter 46 – Small, Unplanned Set Backs, Passion, Surrender, Sex, and Missing You, Henry Miller
I’m writing this letter on 6-5-2012 at 1:13 p.m
“Why not accept the challenge of the Spirit and yield? Why not surrender, and thus enter into a new life?” –Henry Miller, The Time of the Assassins
“Good luck! Keep writing and painting – the only salvation in this cheesy world.” –Henry Miller, Letter to Irving Stettner, Stroker Magazine, Thurs. 4/5/1978, From your Capricorn Friend
I have missed writing to you so much! I haven’t been able to write due to working night and day, around the clock, to meet a couple of previous art deadlines. My art show in Maple Grove, Minnesota was a success. For the past several weeks, I’ve been continuing to experience severe headaches, resulting from three bulging discs in my neck, as well as severe TMJ, and advance stage arthritis in my jaws, which occurred from two severe car accidents when I was younger. I have also been on bed rest over four weeks due to the ugly, awful, deadly demon, whooping cough. There has been a severe outbreak in Minnesota and several other states such as California and Wisconsin. Due to my kidney disease and compromised immune system, sometimes I am susceptible to picking up highly contagious illnesses. This sucks. But it could be worse, I could be dead. I haven’t written because my body has felt weak and my head has been cloudy. I also haven’t written because I really don’t like to talk about my faults, flaws, and illness. However, to give you an accurate view about the obstacles in my life, I feel the need to disclose all of me, the good, the bad and the ugly. I am just now feeling the energy and clear headedness to attempt to write this letter to you.
Roger Jones asked HM this question in 1977, Conversations with Henry Miller – “It must have taken great courage to write the way you have.
HM’s answer: “Oh yes, that I must have had, everybody concedes that. I don’t take credit for it. It was just natural with me. Oh wait a minute, no I’ll modify that. I had to be absolutely desperate before I could write like that. I had been put right down, to the very bottom, ignored, and spat upon, and humiliated. Everything wrong happened to me. And my attitude was, I’ll get back at you, you bastards, fuck you. I’ll show you who I am.” –Conversations with Henry Miller, edited by Frank L. Kersnowski and Alice Hughes. This excerpt was printed in the Queens Quarterly, 84 (1987), 351-65 Henry Miller at Eighty–Four, Roger Jones / 1977 Continue reading