Mia Loves Henry Miller – My Mary Godmother, Mistress Jeaninstein, Shegor, and Halloween Skits at Ground Zero Nightclub in NE Minneapolis

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(These letters are in raw – rough draft format – please pardon errors…Oh well ;)…thanks for being a patient supporter if you don’t really give a shit… enjoy the read. I’m getting ready to release my first 15 letters in sequence. Many are letters that have never been published online. I hope to publish near the end of January 2017 – Thank you again for your support – Mia)

 

 

10/29/16

 

Dear Henry-

People living deeply have no fear of death.- Anais Nin

 

There are two seasons in Minnesota which I generally enjoy – the spring and the autumn season.   What’s ironic about these two seasons is that the temperature outside does tricks with a Minnesotan brain. When it is spring and 50 degrees outside, we wear spring coats, shorts and t-shirts, relishing in the warmth. When it is autumn and 50 degrees out, we put on our winter coats – shivering from being so cold.

I enjoy observing new life bloom in the spring – witnessing all of the vibrant, new colors blanketing the thawing earth as if it were a painting that is coming alive.  In the fall, the ground and trees appear as if they are on fire, blazing with orange, yellow and reds, right before death – when the sadistic, winter blankets our state with thick sheets of frozen, white snow.

Indian Summer

The earth is dying while I witness

Leaves falling from the trees

The Northwinds kiss the southern

Which chills my trembling knees

The October wind is howling

The Universe closes begins to close its eyes

Until the sun starts to beam again

For Indian Summer’s on the rise

The Earth re-awakens

Yet, only for awhile

The sun offers its last rays of warmth

In gratitude I smile

The bees are buzzin’ before the winter

The flowers bloom one last time

Before the northwinds kiss again the southern

And the sun no longer shines. – Mia Malone-Jennings – Whispers of Gold

Halloween used to be my favorite holiday – before I decided that dressing up, pretending to be anyone I want for one day is over rated. I want to dress up on any day of the year, and be who ever I wish to be.  I want to grow up to be much like the fashion icon – Iris Apfel.  I bet that I sound like Mrs. Curmudgeon…right?  I actually stopped celebrating Halloween when I stopped being a Go-Go Dancer at Ground Zero Nightclub in NE Minneapolis, and a Burlesque Performer/Show Producer.  It’s been numerous years after my departure and I still haven’t really felt like celebrating one of the best American holidays of the year.

I recall the years when I couldn’t wait for Halloween to arrive.  My dearest friend – who I nickname my Mary Godmother owns a costume store in a suburb of Minneapolis, where I love to spend any extra cash and time.  I would pick out my costume at the costume shop usually in July when the Halloween shipments first come into the store and put my elaborate costume on the layaway plan.  My first costume was a white and gold, Greek Goddess gown.  It took me five weeks to pay for it – paying a sum of 25 dollars each installment.

I call the store owner my Mary Godmother because she has supplied me with the most gorgeous Go- Go and burlesque costumes for over a decade – making me always feel like Miarella.  Some girls only dream of having a Fairy Godmother.  I’ve had the real deal.  This woman has been a mother figure to me.  She is my mentor and one of my dearest friends. I can count on this female friendship to always last.  My Mary Godmother is always there for me, never judging how I live my life.  She is there for me- always. I am lucky for have such a wonderful person in my life.  I will write more about her later.

I wore my Greek Goddess costume on the evening I performed in my very first Ground Zero Halloween Skit at Ground Zero Nightclub in NE Minneapolis.  There are two notorious Gothic nightclubs in Minneapolis – First Avenue Nightclub and Ground Zero Nightclub.  I’ve performed at both and love them dearly.  I have a fondness for Ground Zero. It’s my home, where I loved to dance and perform as a submissive. My name’s even immortalized on their nightclub wall and in the dressing room.  However, First Avenue is where I got my start in fashion design (upcycling clothing) and Dr. Farrago’s Burlesque Theater.

Back in the day, GZ was notorious for their Halloween Extravaganza’s and the skits produced by the owner, MW.  I had been performing as a Bondage A-Go – Go Dancer for at least two years. I believe this is the very first skit I performed in and I was so fucking nervous.  It felt as if a dozen bats were set loose in the pits of my bowels, fluttering their creepy wings deep inside my lower belly.  My anxiety rose like vomit up my stomach and esophagus, but I swallowed it down as I read the intricate, short, skit that the owner wrote.  I was not good at recalling the exact details of the skit in a very short amount of time. I had about 20 minutes to digest it. I feared that I would disappoint everyone because I had one of the main characters – Shegor.  I was re-creating Mistress Jeanenstein.

I’m going to try to recall the precise sequence of events during this gruesome, electrifying Halloween skit. It’s been a very long time since I performed it onstage. I remember how my heart raced so fast – my thoughts whirled inside my brain, nervously attempting to memorize the order of the script I was reading during rehearsal.  The stage looked eerie and amazing.  An evil genius named Sparky and the owner designed the set – appearing as if a dark and creepy laboratory.  There was even an electrifying Jacob’s Ladder – created by Sparky, and a medical gurney with a tray of gruesome, female, body parts made of rubber behind a white screen.

An hour prior to Ground Zero’s doors opening for patrons, permitting them to enter the nightclub’s big Halloween extravaganza, we rehearsed the skit.  As we ended it in rehearsal, and I was pretending to do naughty things to Mistress Jeaninstein –  the bra she wore pierced through my cheek, causing real blood to drip down my body and onto the stage floor.   Her bra wasn’t any ordinary bra. It had been made for MJ by a person who welded it for her. It was made of iron. Each cup had several points which were very sharp.  MJ’s bra appeared gorgeous but was dangerous if anyone got too close to it.

On very special nights at Ground Zero, such as Halloween, New Years, and the infamous Rubber Balls, the DJ always played the very best of Electronic Dance Music.  I was always the first performer to begin dancing on the catwalk, or stair landing and the last one to finish at the end of the night.  I had passion, a creative soul and stamina.  I lived breathed and dreamed of music and dancing.  On nights like Halloween, I fed off the high energy of the crowds like a vampire does on blood – especially when these patrons were just as excited about Halloween as I was, cloaked in the most creative costumes.  The people who attended Ground Zero on Halloween loved the holiday as much as I did. They didn’t give a shit about a costume contest – as long as they could dress up. GZ never hosted any Halloween costume contests when I performed at this nightclub as a Bondage A-Go-Go Dancer.  People arrived dressed in the most wicked, creative costumes – arriving for the dancing and to see the midnight stage show, which was always spectacular.

It was most likely near midnight when I finished performing with MJ as her submissive upstairs in the loft. I scurried down the steps in a pair of black, thong panties and black, electrical tape covering my large, round, brownish-pink nipples. My ass was flaming red from the spankings I had just received.  It kept my body warm and my blood tingling with a mad rush of endorphins.  I felt high on pure adrenaline.

“It’s time to get ready for the skit,” I heard someone tell me when I entered the dressing room which was scattered with numerous duffle bags and little suitcases which carried their costumes for the night, an array of cosmetics bags, boxes, stage make up, fake blood, curling irons, hot curlers, and cheap plastic glasses that were partially filled of alcoholic drinks.

“Shit!” I exclaimed to MJ as I put on some small, black, fancy lingerie, a corset, and a white lab coat.  “What if I don’t recall the exact sequence of how to put you back together again?”

“Don’t worry,” MJ responded wearing a small pair of black, thong panties, with an overlay of pointed metal panties,  as well as the beautifully welded bra and panties a patron of the club had made for her, months prior.  I feared her bra because the side of my cheek still throbbed from where it had pierced through it during rehearsal.  “I’ll be behind the screen.  If you forget, just ask me.  Just go with the flow. You’ll figure out what to do.  I always do.”

“Who is this Shegor character anyways? “ I was so nervous and full of apprehension that I pronounced Shegor as Shygor inside my head during rehearsal.  I had no clue I was playing the female equivalent to Egor – the mad scientist’s assistant.  This could’ve ruined the entire skit.  But, because I didn’t know, I added my own style to this version of Shegor.  I was supposed to wear my hair all messy and perform with a bad limp.  I couldn’t afford wigs at the time and my hair was too thick to put under it.  My hair was too dense to keep it appearing messed up with hairspray.  Back then, I had the Bettie Page hairstyle.  I didn’t know that I was the equivalent to Egor, hence no bad limp either – just sexy hip bumping, hip grinding and hip gyrating.  It was so much fun! (There are times when I’m grateful to be an idiot savant)

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“Art teaches nothing, except for the significance in life.”—Henry Miller

When the curtain went up at midnight and the naughty, eerie, sexy skit started, everything became a dreamy blur.  I was so nervous I wanted to puke on stage.  But, soon, Shegor became my own creation.  I was grateful that I was too busy to stop to get something to eat on the way to GZ. I wasn’t going to puke a hamburger and fries all over the stage.  That would’ve been disgusting.

On stage there was a gruesome table full of rubberized, female body parts, soaked in fake blood.  I pretended I was evil and very interested in each piece.  I started with the hands and feet, strutted and dancing naughtily, until it was time to take them back behind the screen.  MJ’s body was silhouetted by dim light behind the large white screen. The borders facing the audience flickered with electric lights. The patrons can visually see me piecing this gorgeous creature together again behind the screen.  When it came time to put Mistress Jeaninstein’s va-jay-jay back inside of MJ – I strutted on stage sexily, before creeping behind the screen, teasing all the girls who plastered their bodies against the stage.  They stared at me with starry eyes when I demonstrated how my fingers would tease and taunt a pretty pussy like the eerie, bloody one I was handling.   I believe that was my favorite part of the skit.  I love to make others feel something when I’m dancing on stage, in a cage, or high on a catwalk.  I love to make others feel something when I’m creating art, sewing, sculpting, writing, or performing on stage.  It’s a large rush for me. It’s the reason I am an artist.  I definitely didn’t do it for the money.

No one had any clue that MJ had been talking to me behind the silhouetted screen, telling me which order the body parts go into her.  I had never acted on stage before, nor given a complex script which I had to memorize in about fifteen minutes.  I was pretty much performing with an impromptu spirit – going with the flow when I forgot how the script went. The Halloween skits each year, only lasted approximately ten minutes, so I didn’t have a lot to recall.  However, to me those ten panicked moments felt like an hour.  However, once I found my zone – abandoning every my sense of my nervousness, I discovered my theatrical flow and went with it. Once I did, time flew past quickly.

Soon, Mistress Jeanenstein had been recreated.  Shegor beamed with pride when she led her new, lovely creation out from behind the screen.  Moments later – Shegor and her monster were lasciviously bonding on stage.  This time, no one’s cheek was pierced by the monster’s pointing, metal bra.

The curtain comes down – lights go dark – dance music begins to play- end of skit.

I must admit that it was the skits that interested me the most at Ground Zero Nightclub.  I arrived as a Dancer/submissive when the GZ players performed a skit every Thursday night.  I adore dancing.  Yet, it was the naughty skits produced on stage that made me a dedicated performer for so many years. It took two years of dedicated Go-Go dancing and being a performance submissive, much like the character, Mimi, in the infamous book by Steig Larson, The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, to get to perform in my very first skit.  If I hadn’t befriended the notorious Jean Bardot, I do not think my time at GZ would’ve been so eventful.

I wish I could go back in time – stop it for a decade – when I could remain in my 30’s forever.   If you are a young woman reading this – live your thirties well.  Make the memories last forever.

Actually we are a vulgar, pushing mob whose passions are easily mobilized by demagogues, newspaper men, religious quacks, agitators and such like. To call this a society of free peoples is blasphemous. What have we to offer the world besides the superabundant loot which we recklessly plunder from the earth under the maniacal delusion that this insane activity represents progress and enlightenment? —Henry Miller

 

 

 

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Love Letters, Midnight in Paris, Erotic Fantasies, and the Roaring Twenties

(Dear Blog Readers

I am re-posting some old letters that have been revised for my upcoming book – ebook.

I thought that I’d give new readers a look into the very first letter I wrote to Henry Miller. I also wanted to re-fresh old readers by bringing them back to the beginning of my blog. I hope that you enjoy reading this letter as much as I enjoyed writing it.  Sincerely, Mia)8S2A8984

 “That night I was going to hear Henry Miller speak at an acting class, my house burned down.  I didn’t go to the lecture, but a few weeks later I still wanted to meet him.  I began to ask around for his address so I could write to him.  At the same time, I was trying to refurnish my home.  At an estate auction I discovered a first edition set of books titled Women through the Ages.  I took out one of the volumes, and there folded inside was a letter from Henry Miller to a woman.  How could I not bid on the books? Three thousand dollars later I owned them and had Miller’s address.  I wrote him, enclosing the letter I had found, as well as a few “actress” photographs of myself that I thought might pique his curiosity.  A few days later, Henry sent the first of fifteen hundred letters he was to write to me.  We became good friends and, perhaps, even more.” –Brenda Venus, Dear, Dear Brenda

Dear Henry,

I genuinely wish that I would’ve been able to communicate to you via letters when you were alive.  I would have savored and cherished the words you might have written upon paper to me in reply. Your past lovers, Brenda Venus, Hoki Tokunda, and Anaïs Nin were lucky to possess a bit of your soul, capturing your spirit with the words you once wrote to them in numerous letters. The great passion you possessed when you were alive must have bled into the ink like deep, flowing blood.  If there is a life after death – I fantasize that you are enjoying these letters.

 

I know time travel is impossible.  To satisfy my yearning to transport myself into the past, to spend time with you, I made do by slowly, over the course of many years, purchasing a vast collection of your books, reading them whenever I found a spare moment in my busy schedule.  You speak to me from another space and time, another era or realm, through your written words – through the books you have left behind.  I have an obsessive need to speak back to you from my mortal plane to your immortal plane, through my erotic, personal letters written to you, hoping to connect with you on a deep, spiritual level, beyond the limits of the physical body.

I recently watched the Woody Allen movie starring Owen Wilson and Rachel McAdams, Midnight in Paris – wonderful movie, especially for writers.  I really enjoyed it – except that they didn’t include you or Anaïs Nin in the mix of great writers living in Paris during those times.  The movie reminds me of you, and writers like me.  Owen Wilson, the main character, (Gil) is a striving, aspiring author, who loved to walk the streets of Paris at night.  At midnight, he escapes, lured by several high-spirited, inebriated people, in a fancy, slick, vintage automobile, driving into the night, into another dimension in time and space – into a vintage world – the Roaring Twenties.

In this strange world, Gil meets legendary writers Hemingway, Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, Gertrude Stein, and artists like Picasso and Salvador Dali.  He also meets a very beautiful woman named Adriana – who had been a lover to Picasso and Hemingway, and whom Gil starts to fall in love with…

I can’t slip through a magic dimension in space and time, like Gil did in this romantic movie – to travel back to Paris, to the exciting and exuberant era when you were living there.  When you were barely surviving financially, and writing during your days and nights.  When you strolled silently, deep in thought, upon the idyllic boulevards of Paris at night – when you were making love to Anaïs, or fucking June when she visited, or when you were bedding pretty whores at naughty French brothels.

My imagination and writing is my only transport to the past, to you, in Paris.  It permits me to teleport back in time with my imagination, when you were a young, vital, hungry writer, who was full of life and passion.  I can almost see the Eiffel Tower, taste the delicious French pastries, sip indulgently upon the savory wine, experience myriad cheeses melt upon my tongue, hear the romantic melodies of Parisian people speaking the language of love, see the newest fashions, hear the tranquil current of the River Seine, and listen the cathedral bells ringing every fifteen minutes at Notre Dame.

I’m going to use my imagination, Henry, pretending that we’ve entered through a mystical door in time and space:  We are in 1920’s Paris.  I am a young, beautiful French girl, named Fifi Marie, working at a moderately priced Parisian brothel, as a prostitute.  Fifi is very passionate about life, sex, literature, art, poetry, and writing.  The only way Fifi can experience life and survive as an artist, during the Great Depression, is to make love to men and women for a living – an occupation where I can make good money for a short amount of my time, so that I can purchase books, paints, canvas, brushes, ink and paper to write on. and have enough time in my day to paint, to read, or to write.

In this fantasy, I am playing the part of  a woman, who is sexually enlightened and liberated. Fifi Marie feels no shame for her profession as a prostitute.  I’m not forced to do this. I do it because I like to do it.  I do it because I feel an intense rush to make someone feel good.  The profession was different than I initially expected.  I wasn’t so sure that I could connect with others so quickly and intimately.  After a few weeks, I find it completely invigorating and intriguing.  I think being a paid lover is a beautiful art form. It offers me great satisfaction to please someone – to sense their powerful release.  The sensation charges me like buzz from a tall can of Red Bull.  In this imaginary world, I like being with the other girls at this brothel and a part of Madame Cherie’s family.  Fifi Marie feels no remorse for her sins.

One night, after midnight, you find me at a Madame Cherie’s brothel, where you are well known.  Many of the girls at this brothel talk about you, Henry – all good things about the way you fuck.  They also say that you can be an insensitive pig.  Anaïs has just mailed you some money, which she snuck from Hugo’s wallet while he was sleeping. You are supposed to buy food and writing supplies – but you must have felt me thinking about you, my voice calling you in the night – to come to me – to share my world for awhile.

We had met once before, months ago, in the brothel’s lineup.  You probably don’t remember me – you didn’t choose me, you chose Bella.  She’s a wonderful choice – a very beautiful and an amazing lover – this I know personally.  But, it’s not her that I yearn for.  It’s you, ever since the first time I saw you and heard you passionately fucking Bella in her bedroom, which is right next to mine. The walls are old and thin with barely any insulation.

On the evening on which you pick me from the lineup, I am wearing black fishnet stockings with a tight, blood-red satin corset, shiny black pumps, and very feminine, black lace silk bloomers.  Over this I’m wearing an elegant, long sheer, black caftan, tied casually at my waist.  My hair is short, raven black in a dramatic 1920’s finger-wave style – my lips are painted a glossy ruby red – my eye make-up dark, bordered by artistic lines of charcoal black.  You immediately pick me out of the lineup, wasting no time.  You tell me on the way upstairs that I remind you of your French lover, Anaïs Nin.  She sounds beautiful and intriguing.

I can see rapacious lust filling your deep, penetrating eyes, whenever you steal quick glances at me through your round, black rimmed glasses.  Your sexual appetite is awakening as we near my room.  So is mine.  My heart is racing with apprehension, which I most often do not feel before a visit from a gentleman.  You are different, Henry.  I can feel your virility – taste your dominance in the air.   I must admit, I am apprehensive– but, my curiosity is so much stronger.

Seconds after I shut my door, you grab my arms tightly, thrusting me closer to you.  Your face nears mine, your intellectual eyes lock with my eyes, your mouth exhales heavy breaths of testosterone and lechery.  An animalistic ache penetrates my hot and sultry loins when your lips near mine and your arms embrace my feverish body. I tingle with anticipation.  I gasp softly when your confident arms grip firmly around my narrow waist. My breath rate becomes faster.  My heart beat races.  I can hardly catch my breath.  My nipples perk and harden when your body presses ardently onto mine. My knees weaken as I permit you to pilot the way in our fervid encounter.  A flush of warmth pervades every inch of my soul. My blood becomes warmer and warmer, moment to moment until I feel completely hypnotized.  Every cell in my body tingles when your mouth opens with voracity, lust and eagerness.  My toes curl when your tongue plunges and then deeply explores the depths inside my mouth, when you suck the tip of my tongue as if it were my clitoris. Your fervor grows long, thick and stiff beneath your pants.  In a carnal frenzy, my hands help you out of your trousers and undergarment.  Soon I am stroking your hot, pulsing, hard shaft a few times, squeezing it inside the palm of my hot and sweaty hand, feeling it grow harder, hotter and more erect.  I am pleased with your arousal.  I do a slow strip tease to tantalize your senses like a classic burlesque girl would. You race to unbutton your shirt, removing it rapidly, tossing it onto the floor, alongside my robe, corset, garter, stockings and bloomers.

Without speaking, you firmly guide my body until I am on my knees, sternly grabbing the back of my hair, forcing my mouth near your hardness, which drips slow and thick with arousal.  Your other hand softly stroking the side of my face, “Good girl,” you whisper down to me, praising me, “good girl.”  I am comforted, briefly.  Next, you position my face closer to your hardness, pushing it beyond my lips, deep into my mouth.  Your hand continues to tightly grip the back of my hair, pushing my head firmly downward – you enter much deeper towards the back of my throat.  My lips tightly encompass your raging hard on – my mouth sucks greedily like a newborn baby to her mother’s full, swollen breast.

I’m not used to such aggressive lovers.  I’m an inexperienced whore who is still learning her trade. Your rough demeanor is alarming as well as titillating. Your dominance excites me. Yet, it’s frightening.  This spicy flavor of sex is also enticing, intriguing, arousing, and lecherous.  I’m very wet.  There is no way that I can fake this kind of arousal, Henry.

I gasp for breath again, my eyes open wide with surprise, when you throw me down upon my freshly made bed. The Madame is strict about housekeeping.  My clean, crisp, cotton sheets are aromatic with the scent of sunshine and fresh, Parisian air.  Your red-blooded force surprises me.  Suddenly, I exhale loudly, the sounds of my hot breath echoing in the twilight air.  The illuminating rays from the full moon softly shine through my window.  Our lips collide in the night, in the beams of white heat and dancing dust, illuminating our entangled bodies.  Our tongues taste and entangle together like sinful serpents in the deep blue sea.  The flavor of your heated virility knocks the wind out of me.  I can hardly breathe when our naked bodies finally press tightly together and our hearts beat together to a hedonistic rhythm.  Immediately, I attempt to catch my breath.  I feel dizzy.  My sex aches with insane lust.  My swollen, glossy stem of pink flesh throbs profusely.  My rapacious aperture of love rains with lusty, humid moisture.

My heart beat races fast when your lips spread upward in merriment.  Your kind, inquisitive eyes remain connected with mine as your body slithers down my arching body.  Your quick yet sensual lips kiss roughly and hungrily upon my neck, my breasts, my belly, and at the “Y” between my firm thighs.  I permit you to inspect my female fruit like a curious child.  I say nothing.  My bosoms heave – my breath rate quickens. My body quivers with anticipation and avidity.  My back arches high when your fingers tickle my glistening slit and play with my little man in the boat, who is drowning with my wetness.   Each one of your fingers has its fated place and moment. They strike and dance upon my oyster shell keys, playing me like a grand piano.  I thrust my hips upon your rhythmic touch, seeking pleasure, attempting to capture each moment, and to make it last forever.  Your deft fingers continue to dip and culminate inside my constricting walls of flesh, and your soul is deep inside the zone.  Your body moves through time and space, playing an erotic melody of your own.

I exhale a long sigh when your salacious song suddenly ceases.  I melt within, feeling secure and safe, when you joyously kiss my nose, my flushed cheeks and my soft lips.  My body arches with utmost yearning.  I emit a low and voracious moan when your hand reaches for my left bosom, and your fingers grasp upon my large nipple, fondling it gently with a soft and soothing hand.  My temperature escalates higher when your fingers pull and twist my nipples with mounting pressure.  My fervid blood rushes like a mad fever to my clitoris, as if the erotic sensation in my nipple is somehow connected deeply inside me, to my stiff, wet clit.  Suddenly, you release it – my blood rushes back into the tip of my nipple – my toes now curl with scandalous rapture.

Your strong, vital force intoxicates me like a full glass of expensive champagne.  I gasp for air when two of your virile fingers plunge deeply into me, offering me a slight bit of relief – giving a small morsel to the voracious, sex demon inside me.  You enjoy observing my face, to see if I find pleasure in what you offer – to make sure that I am pleased with your deft hands and your overriding, erotic torture.  I can hardly stare back at you – I’m intimidated, I’m submissive, I’m highly stimulated and I’m absolutely euphoric from the race of endorphins beneath my skin.  I feel bewildered and lightheaded. My world is spinning.

Prior to your visit with me at Madame Cherie’s brothel, I had been with various well-paying gentlemen – none of them had been brave enough to seduce me with their strong hands and their commanding aura.  Most often, I can easily seduce them into tame, harmless beasts with just one kiss, with just one stroke from my soft yet firm hand, or with just one slide of my wet, silky tongue upon their long, hard shaft.  But you are different, Henry.  I sensed that right away.  Our passion as writers and artists explodes with carnal instincts and inflamed desires.  We live in the moment, letting the erotic drama unfold…your carnal bites with your mouth and teeth nibbling voraciously upon my stiff nipples.   I scream and moan when I feel three of your fingers plowing deeply into me, curling, wiggling, and dancing inside of my plush, velvet walls, as if a great puppeteer, making my body do things I had never imagined.

I am in “La La” Land, forgetting that you only paid for one hour of my time and attention – I’ll have to make up some kind of lie to tell Madame Cherie.  Our time together is running well over an hour.  I don’t want this to end.  I forget about the minutes on the clock.  Vehemently you fuck me like a wild beast, in a variety of lecherous ways.  You prime my pump, beginning with missionary style – your esurient teeth are scraping against my pulsing throat, like a hungry wolf upon its prey, nibbling my flesh with demand and desire.  I groan softly when you delicately bite the sensitive skin on the back of my neck, sending shivers down my spine.  I’m breathless.  My quim quivers hot and moist.  I can hear laughter downstairs. Bella is fucking some guy in the room next to mine.  Her headboard is banging against my wall at a fast and furious pace. She’s very vocal about her erotic pleasure.  I let her arousal heighten mine until I push the noise out of my mind, concentrating upon your rhythm as if we were intimately and passionately dancing.

 

Both of my hands tightly grip your small, white ass wishing it would pump harder and faster.  Slowly, your hips pumps up and down, up and down, picking up pace like a locomotive departing a train station.  Your hand, gripping and pulling the back of my hair, hard, until my face winces in pain, when we fuck like beasts, doggie style – your hips thrust rapidly in fervor, crashing hard into my ass, which lunges to meet your cock, plunging it deeper inside of me. Pain and pleasure mix so divinely.  I’m thrilled beyond words.  I scream with pleasure when your hand spanks my firm ass, abandoning hot tingles.  My eyes widen, my voice is muffled when your hand quiets my moans when you cover my mouth with it.  You are driving me fucking wild, Henry.

The pleasure I imagine in my fantasy is so primal and exquisite.  I’m deeply inhaling for air, when you hand finally uncovers my mouth.  My eyes are staring at your face, which is now full of concentration.  I am admiring your self control when you suddenly cease fucking me, without ejaculating.  My voice shrills with surprise when your strong hands firmly flip me upon my back, prying my legs apart, spreading them as far as they will go.  My lascivious moans begin to escalate again when your tongue sensuously slides down my body, once more, southward, towards the hottest and wettest part of my body.  My eyes flutter and roll upwards, towards the back of my head, relishing the ecstasy when you go down on me, forever licking my clitoris and insatiable cunt.

You are relentless – devouring me intensely with your mouth.  My hands are tightly gripping at the bed sheets, wrinkling them with the dampness of my sweaty hands.  My amorous moans escalate, increasing in volume, second by second. My voice sounds raspy, my mouth and throat feel dry from panting so heavily.  My head thrashes from side to side. You play my naked body like a symphonic instrument.  My ecstasy is soaring me to the high notes, plunging me to the low notes, maintaining my pleasure with the in-between notes, and shattering my world with the ultimate, clitoral climax!

“You’re a naughty, fucking whore,” I can hear your voice chant repetitively.  I feel no shame.  Your words defile and thrill me!  My legs are flung over your shoulders, trembling, and my mind is floating inside a world of mad, spinning passion.  You thrust your virile hips, slapping your skin upon my tight, firm bum of flesh. Our bodies collide in a luscious rhapsody.   My heart is pumping faster.  I can hardly breathe.  With a melodic force, I open my mouth wide, expelling a string of sated moans.  You are fucking me deeper and faster.   Our skin crashes together, h arder and faster. Voraciously, I take all of you inside of me, constricting and releasing my sexual walls of flesh.  My raspy voice is erotically moaning into the Parisian twilight. I’m sure that the entire brothel can hear me my sensual song of satisfaction.  I desperately desire a drink of water, wine, or champagne to quench my thirst derived from so much fire and passion.  In this significant place in time and space, we are two lovers, meeting in Paris after Midnight.  Our night is raw and brutal, devouring and demanding, sensuous and satisfying.

“Oh yes, Henry…just like that, Henry…Please, I want more, please Henry…” I chant in hot whispers like an eastern mantra – my eyes rolling again towards the top of my head, my eyelashes fluttering fast and uncontrollably.  Only the whites of my eyes are exposed. You continue to ram your carnal hips down upon me, harder, deeper, and faster – my back is pressed deep into my mattress, my head is thrashing rapidly from side to side.  I can hardly withstand the tsunami waves of erotic bliss.  Suddenly, silent screams hiss hotly at the back of my throat, rolling off my tongue, exhaling into the room as if an extremely long, loud, scorching whisper.  My body shudders prior to releasing everything that I have inside of me – my entire body shakes hard from a peaking orgasm.  My red painted fingernails dig into your rugged, vanilla skin.  My vaginal walls are now constricting, more rapidly, releasing, and gripping around your hard, throbbing cock. Your virile hips thrust at a more feverish, frantic, rapid pace – your cock’s thrusting deeper and harder into me, driving me further into a mind blowing realm.  I cannot believe that I’m going to climax again, as you continue to pump and grind your hips between my trembling thighs, pounding your cock into me, faster and harder than ever before.

Our sexual energy passionately entangles, escalating our pleasure higher and higher until I feel the intensity of your orgasmic energy – your scorching hot, white liquid spraying my sexual walls.  I relish in the hot liquid which sprays my tunnel of lust, which tighten like a vice grip on your cock, my titillation splashes upon your flesh like a tidal wave when my body eventually explodes with multiple orgasms.  You wait until my last shudder before you dismount me, flopping with exhaustion upon my bed.  I turn my head to observe you resting upon your back, your chest heaving, attempting to catch your breath.  I smile with satisfaction as your hand wipes the salty sweat away from your eyes.  My smile grows larger when I witness the sinful smile of satisfaction upon your face.   Your eyes are twinkling in the moonlight – merry and bright.

Suddenly, there is a knock upon the door.  Our bodies jolt from our sleepy, satiated state, our muscles stiffening with alarm when we hear Madame Cherie sternly ask, “Fifi…are you still in there with Henry?” She knocks harder upon the door, “Henry! If you are in there, you penniless writer, I’m going to ban you from this brothel immediately!”

You suppress your laughter with a smile and naughty twinkle in your eyes, as you quietly put on your round, black-rimmed glasses before getting out of my messy bed, and slipping on your under garment, trousers, stained white shirt, faded black suit coat and matching fedora hat.  Your cock is still drenched with my sexual juice.  “Fifi Marie, the extra time you spent with Henry is coming out of your share of the pay! Don’t make me have to punish you! Henry, I know that you are in there with Fifi, you do this all the time to my girls – seduce them into extra time…you freeloading pig!   I don’t know why I put up with you!  I highly suggest that you get dressed and go! Don’t return to my brothel for a very long time…you understand?” She hollered with a stern maternal tone through my bedroom door.

“Oui, Madame Cherie,” you say, slowly opening my bedroom door, looking sheepishly downward at the worn, faded hardwood floors, departing my room, closing the door behind you. You politely tip your hat to Madame Cherie, escaping through the brothel’s front door as fast as you can.  You enter into the Parisian night with a light step, whistling a French tune which Anaïs Nin has recently taught you.  Your smile is large, happy for the great fuck, while walking under the illuminating moon and glittering stars upon the vintage boulevards of Paris.

End of fantasy…

I must say good night Henry.

Bisous, Mon Amour

Mia

 

Quick Letter to Henry – Sinful and Spooky Erotic Poem – Bane and Angelina

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Dear Henry,

I am continuing to work on Letter 52 – I am also still re-editing my first fifty letters to you.  Thank you to my blog readers for your patience.  Having custody of my granddaughter, makes it difficult to write on a regular basis.  I should have a new letter finished sometime next week.  I wanted to post a spooky and erotic poem which is published in Justus Roux’ anthology, Tales of the Paranormal.  I also recited this poem at Jamie Joy Houck Gatto’s event in NOLA, Eroticon 2002.

Bane and Angelina

Inside a castle far away the Prince of Darkness sleeps;

Locked with chains to a dungeon wall – a lady fair he keeps.

His soul is starved, his name is Bane, he’s a Vampire from legends told,

His lust is hot, his blood is thin, and his heart is icy cold.

Two nights ago when the moon was full he met his lady fair

On an empty street in Paris with white flowers in her hair.

Her name’s Angelina, her beauty glowed beneath moonlight,

With his eyes he hypnotized and drank her soul that night.

Bane doesn’t feast on human blood; but he feeds slowly on one’s soul;

He dines upon a lady’s love and the beauty which she holds.

He slowly drinks this woman’s soul, her spirit, and her vitality,

He parts her lips and takes a sip of her divinity.

Angelina’s a vision, a lovely portrait, one might say,

During the daylight hours she tries to get away.

Bane’s a handsome fellow; a charmer, one might speak,

She can’t escape his power for he keeps her soul so weak.

For two nights he’s idly feasted, made love to her a hundred times,

And each time he enters deep within, he draws upon her lifeline.

Angelina cannot resist Bane’s power, his charm, and his masculinity,

She melts within like winter snow when the season turns to Spring.

When she moans with pleasure, when she screams with utter fright,

She feeds him more her power and gives him more her light.

Angelina remains imprisoned, pressed naked against the wall,

She dangles weakly from her cuffs as the sun begins to fall.

When darkness veils the evening, when bats take wing this night,

Bane rises slowly from his coffin with a sinful appetite.

Angelina shivers, her body quakes against the dungeon wall,

Her breath rate starts to quicken, her bosoms rise and fall.

“Please, Monsieur, spare me?” Angelina faintly pleads;

But Bane shows to her no mercy; he grins at her with greed.

Into her ivory skin he digs with his razor sharp, fingertips,

Clawing deeply into her soul, drawing it upward between her lips.

Mouth to mouth he inhales Angelina’s light

Devours her heart as it beats furious with fright

She can’t escape his power, her sex drips vulnerable beneath his control,

Bane sucks upon her ripened fruit and sips with hunger upon her soul.

He probes her with his fingers, twists, and twirls with sheer delight,

He sucks upon her swollen breasts on this evil, wicked night.

He stabs her with his manhood; he thrusts into her his sword,

He devours her with greedy lust – this dark and needy Lord.

Angelina shudders… Angelina moans,

Angelina quivers… Angelina groans.

Sweet and Sour gather, Bitter and Sweet engage in dance,

Pain and Pleasure chatter, Dark and Light romance.

Angelina cries when she kisses his thirsty lips;

Bane’s lust inhales her soul as he takes his final sip.

Angelina’s spirit seeps slowly into him

Dissolving his icy heart which barely beats within.

All the stars and cosmos twist and turn above;

Bane’s no longer wicked, his spirit’s filled with love.

“Don’t leave me, Angelina,” He whispers to her desperately;

She barely has the strength to speak, her bosoms slowly heave.

“Don’t leave, my beloved,” Bane cries as the night gives way to dawn;

He truly loves this mortal one, now soon she will be gone.

Angelina had also fallen in love with this dark and evil man;

She couldn’t resist his tongue – nor the touch of his hands.

Angelina whispers faintly with her last breath of soul,

“Goodbye, my dearest Bane,” she exhales sweet and slow.

Waiting for her is another world, a sublime realm, both dark and light,

Soon her soul will vanish somewhere between the day and the night.

Angelina softly sighs, it’s the last sound from her Bane will ever hear;

She departs this world, roams anew, as daylight climbs the hemisphere.

Bane’s heart’s feeling heavy, tears of sorrow stroll down his cheeks,

Glints of sunlight threaten through a window in which it peeks.

Bane doesn’t retreat for cover; he remains, a victim to the light;

He prays for death, his heart’s forlorn; Goodbye, Prince of Night.

When the Angel of Death meets him, Angelina’s by his side

With a leash and collar, and desire burning in her eyes.

Bane no longer has the power; Angelina’s the Mistress in this world,

“Come, my pet!” She orders, with a toss of her auburn curls.

Sometimes, if you listen closely as you stroll upon the Paris streets,

You can hear them walk close behind with their ghostly feet.

Towards the moon she saunters, Bane follows close behind,

Two lovers roam in a distant realm beyond all space and time.

Bane and Angelina live together, forever in eternity

Two as one – beyond the sun – beyond mortality.

When you hear the wind howl – When you feel drops of rain

The two above are making love – with pleasure and with pain.

Author, Mia Malone-Jennings

Another Update

Dear Readers

I am still working on re-editing my blog to transcend it into book form.  I am also moving from my artist loft in St. Paul to another artist loft in NE Minneapolis.  I am juggling several projects, producing burlesque shows, moving to a new artist loft, and editing my book, Mia Loves Henry Miller.

In between packing boxes, I have opened another online art store, where you can purchase my art work on high quality prints or upon stretched canvas.  If you like my work, please support me as an artist. I would be extremely grateful.

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If you have a specific request, please ask and I will do what I can to make that print available.  Thank you, Mia Malone-Jennings

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To my Readers of this Blog,

Thank you for continuing to follow me.  When I am hard at work editing my first book of letters to Henry Miller, I often take many breaks to think.  The best way for me to let go is to be creative in an artistic way.  I love to paint with acrylics on canvas.  I love to use Sharpie pens/markers and Prisma Color Markers on Bristol Paper.   Due to the many hours that go into producing a portrait, I cannot let the originals go inexpensively.  However, with the help of Zazzle.com, I am able to do so in a more feasible way.

If you love Henry Miller, and reading my letters, you might be interested in decorating your bedroom with this print of Henry Miller, Anais Nin, and Big Sur.  I am in the process of building my store.  Please visit it often for other prints of my art work.

It is my hope that my readers will help support me as an artist as I edit this book.  Very Sincerely, Mia

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Mia Malone-Jennings Art Merchandise for Sale

As I am editing my blog Mialoveshenrymiller.com into a book format, I am creating a way for people who enjoy my art work, to purchase it at an affordable price.  I am still in the process of creating my art store. If you would like to purchase a print that you enjoy, let me know, and I will do my best to make it possible to purchase that print in another form that you can easily afford.  Sincerely, Mia Malone-Jennings

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The Wisdom Of Henry Miller – Quote Number One – From HM’s Book, Your Capricorn Friend

I will continue to post quotes from Henry’s Books as often as I can, as I edit my manuscript, Mia Loves Henry Miller, Book Number One – A collection of erotic letters addressed to Henry Miller.

I look forward to starting letters to Henry Miller again.

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