mia loves henry miller – Letter 35 – Mr. Camera Man, Art, Music and Erotica

mia loves henry miller

Letter 35 – Mr. Camera Man, Art, Music, and Erotica

2/1/12 – 10:31 p.m.

Dear Henry Miller,

It’s been a long day.  I’m one day away from showtime.  I’m still dealing with show drama stuff. Someday I will laugh at these obnoxious moments.  Today, they don’t seem as funny.  I wanted to write you a letter earlier today, but, I haven’t had the chance until now.  I’m surprised that I even have the energy to open up a new word document and begin typing.  I’m yawning in between words.

I remember one evening in early summer – the year I met Mr. C.  He had me in a tightly precarious position, bound, naked and submissive. We were playing; spankings, toys, hot, sensual, dripping, candle wax and the sensation of fear instilled by verbal communication.  It made my blood chill me right to the bone.  My eyes got HUGE when I heard Mr. C whisper hotly near my ear, “I’m going to get a camera and take photos of you like this.  And there is nothing you can do.”

Part of me knew he wouldn’t really do it, yet, I didn’t really know.  Our relationship was so new.  He could have gotten his vintage Nikon camera and clicked away and I could not have done anything about it. It was frightening.  But, I thought that it made our hours of play time more thrilling.  It added depth to our scene like tiny details in a painting.

I actually really don’t like having my photo taken. I apologize for taking  away from the fantasy that I like to fuck the camera lens.  But, it takes an army to motivate me to do a photo shoot.  Mr. C and one of my dearest friends who is not a lover, Mr. D, are pretty much the only people I feel most comfortable with in front of the camera, and it took me a long time. I get so nervous to work with other photographers. I can’t help it. Mr. C and I would get into fights whenever it came time to do a new photo shoot for MindCaviar.com or my erotic web site. I’m pretty pathetic.

When I was doing photo shoots with Mr. C, he eventually learned it was easier to turn on the music and let me dance and just snap away.  I learned to forget about the camera when I had music and dancing.  It was easier to do more intimate photos with Mr. C because we have a strong bond of trust and a deep love that makes my connection with him more intimate and less frightening.  One day I will conquer my fear of the camera and learn to feel natural in front of it.

Many years ago, when I was writing for MindCaviar.com, I met an amazing woman in the erotica writing industry.  Her name is Oceania.  She has such an amazingly sexy voice.  She is also a very talented erotic writer and a wonderful woman.  Many years ago, she inspired me to write a piece of poetry, to record it with me reading it, and set it to music, for her web site Lensfucking.com. I found a very talented musician in Minneapolis and a studio to help me with this on a zero budget.  I was very fortunate to have the help of two ingenious men put this together for me.

I thoroughly enjoyed being in the studio and creating this composition.  It was a thrilling, creative process, one I could become addicted to.  What I love about music and words is that it costs nothing to pull it from your imagination, transcending it into sublime substance.

Tonight, Mr. C took a collection of photos of myself and art work I have created or have posed for, over the past decade, and the Lensfucking audio and made a video.   I figured that I had all this visual content and an mp3 not being used. I might as well incorporate it into this letter/blog as if it were items used in a found object sculpture, using everything I can to create art.

I’m super tired Henry.  I must get some sleep.  I need to get up early.  I’m too exhausted to frill this letter out with quotes and excerpts from books.

Much Love,

Mia

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One response to “mia loves henry miller – Letter 35 – Mr. Camera Man, Art, Music and Erotica

  1. Reblogged this on mia loves henry miller and commented:

    I am reblogging my first collection of Letters to Henry Miller, via blog, as I finish the last letter in this first collection of erotic letters written to Henry Miller. This review of stimulating letters will end with Letter 50. Once I finish editing my manuscript and prepare my book for publishing, this first collection of letters will be removed from my blog web site Mialoveshenrymiller.com and transcend into a book. Once this is complete I will begin writing, Mia Loves Henry Miller, Book 2, beginning with Letter 51 – Thank you for all of my readers support.

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